Enemy

Do you ever feel as if your life is not being controlled by your decisions, but by those around you? And it is not that you are being dictated heavily, but the expectations of the people around you influence you to the point where your happiness and life goals drain astray. Majority of my life, after turning eighteen, has been miserable to a certain degree. Like Joaquin, I too, am lost in a world of confusion; only, Joaquin knows who he is. For the longest time, I was always aware of who I was. Never did I feel like I had to leave my hometown and wander the world in search of discovering myself. But do I really know myself?

The decisions I want to make in my life may jeopardize my education, but when does one know when a decision is the right choice? I have been in search for a career that will leave me a mirthful human and because I have been in search for this career, I have studied various careers. As the clock ticks, today, right now, time is gone. Yesterday I was sociology major. Today I am an English Major. What will be tomorrow? As time flies, I force myself into a career I may not fully enjoy for the sole reason that time has flown. I am my worst enemy.