Hello people of Blogger. It has been many, many moons since I have last been here. When I created my tumblr, I assumed I would post more blogs up there so I never really came back here, but I ended up only using Tumblr for little things of my personal life here and there.
Recently, I have been thinking about blogging every so often again, but would rather post here than tumblr because I have less followers here and the ones who do follow me, I have no problem with them reading… rather than a bunch of people.
Having said that, where should I start?
I have never been one to speak publicly about my emotions on the subject of love, lust or even like, but these are traits of human nature that cannot be avoided or pushed aside; it’s life. We all look at people, we all wonder and we all wish we had that ideal person to be with us. Now, since I am unemployed with no career, in my opinion, I have no reason to seek a relationship with a female. To me, a man should be with a career or at least a job to have a relationship; speaking as a heterosexual male. I don’t know why I feel that way, but maybe it is the old fashioned trait in me.
Anyway… because of that, I usually tend to stay away from meeting people, women specifically. I have had women interested in me and I somewhat to them and like everybody else, I have had an interest in someone who may or may not have the same feelings towards myself; I wouldn’t know ‘cos why find out if I didn’t really want to be in a relationship (maybe that’s an excuse I give myself rather than the fear of rejection)? Specifically, out of a lot of women I have met, only one has stood out. Only one female has been on my mind constantly because she is in fact, to me, the ideal woman to be with.
Corny as it may sound, because I like to experiment with poetry, I have had urges to write poetry about this person, about how the person makes the world appear to me. I hold back though… because like I said… corny. It seems like a cliché to me… writing poetry because of a woman. Sometimes, clichés are the perfect way to go about things; Clichés are clichés for a reason.
Either way, risk taking or excuse making, this woman makes me think about a lot; future included: life, marriage, happiness. As corny as it IS, she brings that stuff out of me. Now, I don’t know if I am going to write poetry about her or anything of that sort, but I am sure I will blog about her again. For the past few years I have known her, she has been the only one to rock my world.
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